Boy Troubles

Another question that I am asked often is wether I have been with a guy yet. The answer is no. As many of you know who read my blog or are my friends in real life my wife has been hoping that I might find a guy friend. Well several weeks ago, she convinced me to go out for drinks with her and a co-worker who she has been friends with for sometime and she confided in our story and even showed him photos of Jamie. He apparently thought I was attractive and was interested in getting to know me. We met for drinks and then again a week or so later. Things were very laid back and nice and I was actually enjoying it. We were friendly and had progressed to hugs and kisses on the cheek goodnight. The following week my wife asked if it would be ok if he came to our home for drinks and I said it would. Well the week leading up to him coming over every night my wife and I were having furious sex with her just getting more and more excited and telling me how amazing sex was going to be with all three of us the coming Friday night. With the coming event and the incredible build up over the week of expectations and pressure... I dont know what else to say... I panicked. I told her I would not see him anymore and that I wanted to stop for awhile. She was very understanding and we took a break from talking about her finding me a boyfriend for a few weeks. I started to feel terrible about what I did I actually thought that she might not bring it up again but i was wrong, lol... it is something she really thinks should happen and she is right back at it. After this time has passed I am feeling much better and more open to it if the right guy comes along.