Sweet

My wife did something I thought was so sweet. The night of my mini-breakdown after getting outed at a dinner, I was sitting on the couch in tears. My wife came and sat beside me pulling my head to her chest she stroked my hair and said "don't worry baby.. as soon as you decide it's time I will make sure that you are so beautiful when you go out that no one will ever mistake you for a boy again."

Boy Troubles

Another question that I am asked often is wether I have been with a guy yet. The answer is no. As many of you know who read my blog or are my friends in real life my wife has been hoping that I might find a guy friend. Well several weeks ago, she convinced me to go out for drinks with her and a co-worker who she has been friends with for sometime and she confided in our story and even showed him photos of Jamie. He apparently thought I was attractive and was interested in getting to know me. We met for drinks and then again a week or so later. Things were very laid back and nice and I was actually enjoying it. We were friendly and had progressed to hugs and kisses on the cheek goodnight. The following week my wife asked if it would be ok if he came to our home for drinks and I said it would. Well the week leading up to him coming over every night my wife and I were having furious sex with her just getting more and more excited and telling me how amazing sex was going to be with all three of us the coming Friday night. With the coming event and the incredible build up over the week of expectations and pressure... I dont know what else to say... I panicked. I told her I would not see him anymore and that I wanted to stop for awhile. She was very understanding and we took a break from talking about her finding me a boyfriend for a few weeks. I started to feel terrible about what I did I actually thought that she might not bring it up again but i was wrong, lol... it is something she really thinks should happen and she is right back at it. After this time has passed I am feeling much better and more open to it if the right guy comes along.

Confused Part two

First I just wanted to thank so many who have written with concern over my last post. As I stated before I went to a work dinner and was confronted by a very nice woman asking if I was transitioning to female. I was somehow unaware how much my looks had changed even as a man. Well reality pretty much smacked me in the face. When I returned home that night and the next day my Wife was super supportive and let me talk things out with her. In the end she made me feel much better and encouraged to continue on. It was kind of interesting though, I did see two dynamics working in my wife. The first night after getting home my wife was only positive and comforting..saying she loved me as a boy and as a girl.. telling me it would be ok if I stopped but it would be such a shame because I am so pretty now.. that God wouldn't have given me such feminine attributes if he didn't want me to use them.
 The next day however something interesting happened.. we were sitting on opposite couches drinking our morning coffee when I suggested to her that maybe I should stop the hormones and go back to mostly being a guy.. she sat back almost shocked and said very sternly.. actually interrupting me before I finished speaking.. "NO.. we won't be doing that".. well then I was kind of shocked, I honestly didn't know that she felt so strongly about this but obviously it is much more important to her than I thought. In the end, I am happily back on track and feeling fine now, thanks again!!