Confused

 I had a very strange and moving experience last night. I was asked to consider being on a Board of Directors for a local arts foundation. Last night was kind of a first meeting get to know me thing by the other members of the board. I thought I should try to be as "manly" looking as possible so I pulled my hair back, put on baggy khakis and a leather jacket and put on my thick rimmed Ray Bans to try to take attention away from my eyebrows. The evening went along really well I was feeling very happy and confident. Then nearing the end of the night and after several glasses of wine one of the women on the board approached me alone and gave me a crooked smile.. she said "You are very sensitive aren't you?" "I guess so".. I responded, kind of confused. She continued "I think you are really brave.. and you look so happy".. "Thanks but I am not really sure what you mean?' I said. "Well.. you are... evolving.. aren't you?.. becoming what you really feel you should be right? Becoming what makes you happy"… I was shocked, I am sure my jaw dropped.. she lightly grabbed my arm and said, you are transitioning into a woman aren't you? I mean you are just so beautiful, I really mean that".. I tried to speak but I don't think what came out was English.. I was stunned… I went from feeling very confident to feeling completely vulnerable and foolish… how I could I be so stupid? I literally thought no one knew.. at least not when I was in boy mode. I came home completely shattered in a way.. I am still today trying to figure out what it means.. have I been more known than I realized all this time? Should I start telling people? Should I only dress as a woman now? I am very confused. I thought I could manage two separate identities. Sorry this was a serious post.. I guess I am using it as therapy.

Knowing

 Sometimes I feel like I get a little closer to realizing how a girl must feel. Last night as I watched tv on the couch in my new satin baby doll nightie my wife bought me for Valentines (I just can't stop wearing it I love it!) my wife came down from her shower in her pj bottoms and very tight fitting, worn thermal tee. As she strode toward me with her long hair still wet I couldn't help but notice the outline of her huge cock in her tight pj bottoms.  She gave me an evil half smile as she leaned over pinning my shoulders down as she roughly shoved her tounge in my mouth. At this moment she seemed so muscular .. even a bit masculine.. she has been working out so much lately she is probably stronger than I am now and even more muscular. As my silky thin legs are tucked under me I am unable to move. Her bombshell D cup breasts look even larger in her tight thermal .almost intimidating .she is a comic book hero come to life as I look down at my own small budding breasts I realize even as two women now she still dominates me after roughly kissing me until I am breathless she starts to squeeze my breasts and pinch my nipples as she moans a little.. as do I. She is holding my long blonde ponytail with one hand as she cups my new breast in the other. Suddenly she brakes away and stands up, in the same motion still pulling my ponytai guiding my face to her cock. She uses my ponytail as a handle to move my head and face up and down the length of her covered rock hard cock. I know what I have to do and quickly pull down her bottoms until her cock springs to life smacking my cheek.. she giggles a little but then to business again squeezes my hair a little harder and shoves her cock in my mouth. Although she is usually very tender and loving in sex ..tonight she is not. There is no other way to describe it .. she is fucking my mouth and I am just trying to keep up. She stands still for moment hands on hips just staring down almost critiquing my performance.. I know she is studying my form so I try to be as sensual as I can looking up at this powerful women as I suck her cock. It is not lost on me that a couple years ago our positions were the exact reverse.. somehow I know that she knows this too and is enjoying it.

 She breaks away and strides confidently over to the couch and I follow behind.. as she stretches out she says "climb up there little girl"..  I do, and as I slowly lower my pussy on my mans cock I sigh.. she smiles and just lies back to enjoy the show.. I know this is going to be all me so I move slowly at first .. gyrating my ass eventually trying to be as sexy as I can.. she commands "Show me your breasts.. squeeze them for me baby".. I am not sure why maybe its the feeling of being a little humiliated, being on display.. maybe its the overwhelming feelings coming from my pussy or maybe its the hormones but I start to cry.. a combination of tears and moans as I continue to ride her cock.. eventually I am completely overcome and I nearly black out as I come in my tight little panties.

I nearly fell as I rolled over off her and curled up exhausted I was shocked out of my sleepy daze by her firmly grabbing my ponytail and pulling… "oh nooo you are not finished yet" she said almost in a mean tone .. I was confused… "just because you came you don't get to go to sleep because you're not in the MOOD anymore… what if your boyfriend isn't finished yet?" "You need to learn this  baby, you need to STAY in the mood" at this she roughly shoved her cock to the back of my throat. As I gagged and tried to catch up she pistons in and out of my mouth while she held my ponytail rock solid. After I am not sure how long she started to almost scream.. "Yessss  baby I am coommmiinng".. at this she pulled out and in the same motion while holding my hair with one hand she squeezed her balls hard shooting load after load of her come on my face and breasts… "oh God honey you look so fucking beautiful with come on your face"