Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Earrings

Earrings..  I love them! Soo sexy! Believe it or not my ears are not pierced. I have always worn clip-ons or creative taping. I know it seems silly that someone who has their belly button pierced is embarrassed about getting her ears pierced… but I am. I think I am running out of time though.. my wife has always said she wished I would get them pierced.. but now she is insisting, even implying a deadline. She said she is buying me very nice earrings for Christmas.. I am feeling there is a warning there.. lol. Please tell me why its ok for a guy to have his ears pierced in real life. It's not too weird now days right?

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Why?

I was asked again today something I have been asked many times and I thought I might post some of my thoughts here. The question was "Why would a gorgeous women like your wife want to turn her macho husband into a girl?".  
I have spent a lot of time (and worry) thinking about this and here are the reasons as I think they are for my particular relationship. Not to say this is how your relationship would be. Or that these are your significant others reasons. These are just my best guesses as they pertain to me. My wife does not read my blog, she wants me to have my privacy, but if she should sneak in maybe she could comment too, as I am not sure of these reasons.. just my best guess.

1. Bi-sexuality. Since the first time my wife, then girlfriend, and I ever started to be sexual she has been at least bi-curious about other women. Perhaps this gives her a way to safely explore her fantasies. She thinks that women are attractive and sexy and I think she always has. 

2. Power reversal. When I was younger I was a super macho, womanizing, asshole. I know that for a lot of my wife's life she felt powerless because of me, and could do nothing but fix the messes I made in our lives. I also know that because of society, family and church she felt she had to be a good girl and wife and submissive partner in life. Whatever fantasies or feelings she had she could never express them. I don't believe it is a revenge thing (although maybe just a little) but I am sure that it has made my wife feel better in many ways to take more and more power in our relationship. She has done very well at her work, has her own money her own freedom, her body is changing more and more everyday for the better (she was always an athlete but has taken up bodybuilding). I can completely understand the euphoria of having all this power for the first time in her life. I also understand how her feminizing me has added to this power. She has confided to me that she has this need to "break me down completely" and make me totally dependent on her. She has complete control over my sexuality now, making it what she wants it to be. I can't stray, she is more relaxed and confident, and hey.. she gets a hot girlfriend out of the deal. I thought it was very ironic recently when a friend said to me "your wife is like this hot macho stud women".  So true.


3. Love. I also think that at least part of why she wants to make me a girl is out of love. Partly that she might think it is better for me somehow, or better for her but for sure better for us somehow as a couple. I think that there are aspects of being a woman that she feels are so wonderful she wants me to experience them out of love. 

Background

Background

If you are new here or coming back to visit I thought it might be nice to give a short background on me.
When I was younger I had feelings for crossdressing but did not experiment too much out of shyness. My wife has always known about this and we even dressed together on occasion although I was always very afraid to push anything on her or pressure her even though she seemed to like it all very much. Well, in the last two years, my wife and I have matured very much and her comfort and confidence has skyrocketed. In this new found confidence she has started to tell me much more so exactly what she wants, and a big part of that has been for me to become more and more feminine for her. This site is part of my own journal to remember this journey. Please write me so I know you are reading and please ask any questions you may have.
J.

Past Blog

I am trying my best to recover some of the posts from my last blog but have been having trouble. I will do my best.

Hi Again

I want to apologize. I had no idea so many people were reading and wanted me to continue writing. I will try my best to keep this blog a little more up to date.